lately, whenever i have been hanging out with a group of my friends and acquaintances, people have just been completely ignoring me. when i try to talk, they talk over me, and when i do get a chance to say something, no one responds. now, i'm not saying that this happens all the time, but it's just really frustrating and embarassing when no one is listening to you or gives a shit about what you have to say. i always think that all of my friends secretly hate me, or if they don't hate me, they at least don't really like me, and when they do stuff like look me over, it only makes me feel even worse. why does everything have to be so goddamn complicated? there is always some underlying motive to everyone's actions, everyone is so selfish. i can't stand it. it makes me so angry to think about it all that sometimes i can't even think about anything else, no matter how hard i try. if only things could be simpler.

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