i can't stay focused for the life of me. i've been sitting at my computer for almost three hours, doing absolutely nothing, despite the fact that i have tons and tons of work to do. i don't know what's wrong with me. i feel so weak and far away. yeah, that's it, far away. like my in-class essay tomorrow that i should be preparing for is miles away. like the insane prospect of me doing all of my spanish homework for the first time in in a week is beyond me. i think a lot of it has to do with the fact that i really feel that i was just thrown into this year with no help and no support, the teachers just assign a shitload of homework in the first month, and it's just so overwhelming. in the first three weeks, i had four quizzes, two tests, one essay, and three presentations. the first three weeks! is it just me, or is that completely insane? i can't handle this. i was not made for such stress. and it's only going to get worse. it's only fucking september. why am i like this aleady? it's as if summer never happened. i could scream. i am losing it.

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