there are times in my life when i feel very disconnected from the rest of the world, in more ways than one. like, i don't know what songs or groups are popular, what movies everyone else is seeing, etc. etc. i just live in my own little cultural world; i get excited about new books that are coming out, radiohead (have you heard their new single? oy...i love it), poems, and journals. i don't see the world through the same eyes as most other people, and that's something that i'm very proud of, but at the same time, it can lead to much alienation from my friends, even from those who i belive have at least somewhat similar views to my own. though nothing in particular is going wrong in my life in terms of friendships (something that i have always had trouble with in the past), i still feel so out of touch and out of place. i just cry for no reason sometimes, or i start thinking about painful days past and i can't help but just cry some more. i'm feeling very overwhelmed and stressed at the moment, and that could be the cause of all of my displeasure and unhappiness, but i just don't know. i just need something to make me happy, to bring my spirits up...

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